I am a pastor.
That is not to be confused with another “p” word – perfect because I am definitely not that.
But some expect pastors to be.
The truth is as a pastor many, if not all, of my short comings are on full display. By being a pastor I invite people into my life and those who accept it see almost everything.
When I screw up raising my boys.
When I am not loving towards my wife.
When I am selfish.
When I make an inappropriate joke or comment.
When I make decisions selfishly.
When I at times have doubts.
I am most decidedly, far from perfect. But that is not what is required of me.
“what does the Lord require of you
but to do justice, and to love kindness,
and to walk humbly with your God?” – Micah 6.8 ESV
Perfection didn’t make the cut.
So when I invite people into my life and church to be lead by my teaching and discipleship, I am asking people to follow my honesty. My transparency. My readiness to admit mistakes (sins) and turn from them. My commitment to the Scriptures. My striving for transformation to become more like Christ. My love and passion for Jesus.
So why do I and others do it? Why pastor?
Firstly, because I was called by God to do it.
No loud audible voice, but it has been a clear calling on my life the way a teacher or a doctor would feel called to their job.
But also because I love when my life can be an example or a reason why someone else trusts God more.
When my story inspires them in their story.
When my faith in Christ during the messy times leads someone else to place their faith in Christ during their messy times.
Ultimately, that is why I do it.
I don’t like people seeing everything. It is humbling and at times embarrassing. It is daily exposing myself to the unhealthy expectations of others, the criticisms and judgments – both rightly and wrongly.
But I do it each day so that I can point and direct people to a Savior who is perfect.
Who can restore our broken relationship with himself and others.
Who can change our story and help us sort through our messes.
And for that reason I, and countless other pastors, will be open and transparent people. So that people can “Follow my example, as I follow the example of Christ.” (1 Corinthians 11.1)
I am an imperfect pastor serving a perfect Savior and I don’t want anyone to ever get the two confused.
…so that I can keep this post inline with the blog’s theme: The Hobbit comes out this week. That sure looks awesome, doesn’t it?